The deep red cremation of isaac and grace

1. Whoops!

He agreed that she was beautiful and she agreed that he was beautiful, although her agreement came after his, which was immediate. They had the same SAT score! Very high in both cases! This made them respect each other. He asked questions and she answered and he listened and then she asked questions and he answered and she listened and then she said some things on her own, and he listened, but not very hard. Sex! Sex was not accomplished on the first try but they both agreed they liked what did occur. He (being embarrassed about the first try?) offered her a ring, a delicate silver ring that his only son had given to him; he said, Take this ring.

I love this ring, she said, but how can I accept this, the ring from your only son?

Seeing her face, he said, I was kidding! Why would I give this ring to you? He was not embarrassed after all. She said, Well it's a wonderful ring. Sex!

2. The Trying

In general they both agreed the penises of black men were longer and generally bigger than the (sorry! sorry, sorry) vaginas (vagi?) of white women; but that this discrepancy could be--beat!--by matching exceptions with exceptions; but, that he was not an exception and she was not an exception--but, that he--would not push so hard anymore. It was also true that in general black people, being luckier in some respects, were built like horses, while white people in general, in some respects unlucky, were built like cows, and therefore black people tended toward muscular and fit while white people tended toward limp and fat; although it was also true that white people on the whole had money, while black people on the whole--this was really a very big generalization--did not, and that therefore white people tended toward lean and fit and black people tended toward fat; the result being that most people in both races were fat; although neither of them was fat; although of the of the two of them she was fatter, and he took her to the gym.

3. The Not Holding

Actually her SAT score was higher--but not much!--and she did not hold it against him because he was a doctor; a physician, really--either one is fine--while she was just a waitress. Not just! He said this. He said surely she had many ideas about what she would do, and she said she did, and he did not hold this against her, the fact that she only had ideas and not a thing to do--she was only twenty-two. They were sex-bombing all over town! She did not hold his baldness against him, even though it wasn't by choice, as it had been in the case of some young men she'd been friends with in the past; she still liked it anyway. He was not so old that she thought he was old, although he was old in the eyes of other people, she thought; but he was also extremely beautiful, although she hadn't recognized this at first. He did not hold that against her because she was only twenty-three (she had aged) and he understood that she was, as a white person, vulnerable to certain mistakes which stemmed from her not having exper ienced life as a black person; and she did, after all, grow to learn that 99 percent of women, black or white, found him immediately and unquestionably beautiful. She, in turn, understood that the reason he had (sex bombed!) with mostly (entirely) white women was that being a physician--not only a physician, but also one who'd attended a very prestigious medical school--meant that most of the women in his circle (so to speak) were white. She understood, moreover, logically, that were any one person, black or white, to find love blindly (not literally blindly, as in closing one's eyes and stretching one's arms forth in the dark, but as in randomly), that the chooser would most likely end up with a white choice, and she did not hold this against him. He, in turn, did not hold against her the fact that he paid for most of the special hotels that they liked, and she did not mind that he took her, a person who ordinarily would never have gone to a special hotel, to special hotels. He, in return, did not mind when she--as he had, after all, suggested she should--invited the young dancing man to their room and took off all her clothes for the young dancing man. Furthermore, they both agreed that it was not her fault that she could not take off her clothes for him anymore, once the young dancing man was gone, because she was sore; and they both understood that she did not choose that dancing man from all the other dancing men specifically because of his very large penis or intend to disable herself on purpose. In return for this understanding, she refused to hold against him that when they made love (upon her fantastic recovery) he sometimes hurt her and she said--Ow!--and he said Sorry! but then, in a minute, hurt her again, and she said--Ow!-and he said Sorry! but then, in a minute, hurt her again, and she said--Ow!--and he said, I like to fuck.

4. Aria Almost in Argentina

Love is no tomato. Someone said that. Someone else said that was dumb. That was so, so dumb. Who had thought they could say something smart? Did she? She might have been right, but, too bad-- she never did. He did. He said--I love you!--he said it all the time! He meant it! Avocados, with tomatoes and salt, taste good. Eat them. Afterwards, brush your teeth. When we go outside, hold my hand. If you forget to hold my hand, look before you cross the street. This was one of the plans they had: go places. Anywhere, such as Africa, just the continent in general, other countries, Korea included, Idaho, Mt. Vesuvius, Switzerland (but that she was not excited about), New York City (he said, That I hate), Roswell, wherever that is, both parents, houses of, that is, a church, a zoo (they'd take children, have them or find them, this is where the story becomes more poignant), and also other destinations. Shopping, restaurants, things like that. Often, they succeeded! Let's go further, let's be brave.